The Golden Cage


Deafening Noises
Loud shouts
The slamming doors
And the sounds of fists meeting flesh
Screams
Blood and gore
The wounds with no breathing space open over and again
Scars over the other
The mental ones indelible
The fight or flight response
Only possible but not in a cage
Relentlessly fight against the bars with no holds barred

My stomach glued to my back
Not for want of food
But the blows dealt were also to my appetite
I'm bulimic
I am the envy of all 
But all I am is a bird in a golden cage.

Wounds at varying healing degrees
Littered over the expanse of my body
Covered by the finest linen money could buy
A facade, a smile well practicced
The show must go on
The mask in place with the makeup in the right places
So the Blue and black welts don't show
I am at risk

Hoping to find respite
I take solace in the world that is as real as it comes but only to me
My body battered, my voice stolen
My prince charming is turned out monster
The fairy tale exist only in my imagination
Because even in sleep, my mind replays the horrors of the days past and foretell of the days to come
Who would come to my aid?
Who is capable of binding the strong man and plundering his house? 

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